Thursday, May 28, 2009

Learning the Secret: Why I believe the secret helped me have a successful pregnancy

When my husband and I started to try and conceive our second child, I thought it would happen right away. It didn't. After the 4rth month of "perfect timing" I was really discouraged, and felt like it was going to take forever. I would read things about secondary infertility, and have thoughts that my husbands sperm count was probably low because of the industry he works in. Negative, negative, negative. After 8 months of trying, I got pregnant. All I thought about was miscarriage. I read stories about people having them, searched signs and symptoms, and sure enough, at our 11 week ultrasound, no heartbeat.
A short time after I had my d&c, my neighbour asked me if I had ever seen or heard of the secret. I hadn't. She urged me to watch it and told me how awesome it was. I watched it and was super excited and ready to change my way of thinking. Now, this task is so much easier said then done, and I really think that is why the secret doesn't work for everyone. It is very difficult to stop yourself from thinking negative thoughts, and to remember to think of what you want when you feel the way you need to feel to make the secret work. I know, your scratching your head going WHAT?? You have to watch it or read it to understand. I have watched it a few times now, and I haven't at all got it down yet, but I'm working on it, lol.
Anyways, after watching the secret, and thinking about how it worked, I tried to change the way I was thinking regarding getting pregnant. I started to just believe that I would. I stopped the stress about it, and just believed it would happen. Every night before bed I would concentrate and try and imagine I just found out I was pregnant. I visualised the positive pregnancy test, and felt happy. I visualised my baby growing in me. I would enjoy that feeling, and then take a deep breath and just let it go. Stop thinking about it and go to sleep. 6 weeks later, I got a faint positive test. Went to the docs and had blood work done, and I was pregnant. But my HCG level didn't rise, and a few days later my period started. I only allowed myself to be sad for 2 days. After that, I chose to not think about the negative, and was thankful that I got pregnant again so soon after my previous loss. I continued to do my thinking before bed. The following cycle, I got pregnant, and now my daughter is 10 months old.

I am sort of mad at myself that I didn't continue to use the secret after my pregnancy. I got kinda side tracked with life, and allowed my thoughts to wander as they pleased. I know this works and I have more stories to share of how I have seen it work for me, I will share those as well another night.

Here is one from the other day though, with my husband the sceptic. He was doing a job outside, and left his tools when he came home. The clouds rolled in, and it really looked like it was going to rain and he said to me "oh no, my tools are going to get wrecked if it rains" I smirked at him and said "Don't worry, its not going to rain, don't even think about it, think about how its going to blow past us in 1/2 hour" he chucked, but said OK. And we sat and watched the storm blow past without a drop of rain. Thank-you universe!

1 comment:

Nichole said...

Thank you so much!!! I have and read this book about a year ago, but let life get in the way. I recently had a miscarriage, and am hoping for a positive pregnancy test in a few weeks...thank you for reminding me what thoughts and beliefs! :)